Out of cowardice...

Yes, that's what I am...
Yes, you're right...
Yes, I omit...
Yes, I hide...

No, I don't want to speak directly...
No, because I'm sure to regret...
No, don't want to forget...
No, I mustn't feel...

I am a coward...
Hiding between the sheets of paper where I overtly express my feelings for you...
Playing reality in a mind theatre where my mask overlays the suppressed expressions and words, dying to fly out of my body language and mouth...

Yes, I do love you
And No! I don't want to say it...
Rather choose death than deal with rejection in the face...
Rather choose frustration and isolation instead of turning into a different and far path away from what I hold dear...

It kills slowly,
But would die faster if I turn the key to my vault...
But hey... That's just the fucked up me!


神龍、27日2月2012年

ラブ レター

(Rabu Retaa)
(Love Letter)


Mad skills to impress no one

Expecting the impossible

While not asking a thing

I think of you as dream

A nice one that makes me warm inside

The kind that makes you not wanna wake up

That makes you lame inside out

And yet, while being brave and adventurous in it,
You just feel frustrated and down

Because you just acknowledge how powerless you are in reality

And you know your words will never reach their destination because you'll refuse to even open your mouth...

The bigger frustration lies on the known refusal of any feelings I may show or share...
So without expecting anything from you
Not even words
I must ask you this

Let me just have you as a nice dream
'Cuz I have plenty of time to wake up to reality

with love,
your admirer - shinRyuu

神龍、14日2月2012年


Note:
this wasn't written like a letter is supposed to... but nevertheless, I think the result was just the same