胸のチェスト

(Mune no CHESUTO)
(Chest's chest)



秘密を感じる
秘密がある
みんなは持っている
と思う...
いい、
悪い、
強い、
弱い、
みんなは持っている
と思う...
嘘はずっとである
そしてずっとを守る
全ての秘密
と思う...

神龍、16日9月2012年



Romanization (& translation):

Himitsu wo kanjiru (I feel secrets)
Himitsu ga aru (There are secrets)
Minna wa motte iru (Everyone has them)
to omou... (I think...)
Ii, (Good,)
Warui, (Bad,)
Tsuyoi, (Strong,)
Yowai, (Weak,)
Minna wa motte iru (Everyone has them)
to omou... (I think...)
Uso wa zutto de aru (There are always lies)
Soshite zutto wo mamoru (And they always protect)
Subete no Himitsu (All secrets)
to omou... (I think...)

tournant petit...

オレは鳳凰じゃない

そして大きい龍じゃないも

いつもじゃない...

オレは人間じゃない

そして動物じゃないも

いつもじゃない...

今は生まれるよ

小さな幼児だ、

小さな顔だ、

小さな体だ...

オレは神龍じゃない。

オレは小龍*ですよ。

神龍、16日9月2012年

Romanization (& translation):

Ore wa Houou ja nai (I'm not a Phoenix)

Soshite ookii Ryuu ja nai mo (Nor a big Dragon)

Itsumo ja nai... (I'll never be...)

Ore wa Ningen ja nai (I'm not Human)

Soshite Doubutsu ja nai mo (Nor an Animal)

Itsumo ja nai... (I'll never be...)

Ima wa umareru yo (Now I am born)

Chiisa na youji da, (A little infant,)

Chiisa na kao da, (A little face,)

Chiisa na karada da... (A little body,)

Ore wa shinRyuu ja nai. (I am not shinRyuu)

Ore wa Xiǎo Lóng* desu yo. (I am a little dragon)

*小龍 (jap: koryuu; chin: xiǎo lóng) - little dragon

Scared/Scarred...

Are you gonna be mine...
Are you gonna save me from the world and its cruelty,
From the cold of winter,
From the envy of the gods and the jealousy of evil...

Will you stand by me,
Will you be with me,
Will you love me...
As strongly as I think I love you?...

'Cause the future is so unpredictable
And I'm so unsure of everything...

Am I not suppose to protect you
Am I not suppose to be your savior
Will you let me stand for you, by you
Will I make a fool of myself...

'Cause reality is crude and raw
and I'm weak now, a coward...

I've taken so many stabs
Carved so many wounds onto my flesh
That now it's frightening
This vision of something so good, yet so delusional
Worse than that...
I'm so very afraid of what I might be feeling, 
That now my greatest fear is if you won't love me back...

So, deep down on your heart...
Search really closely, really tightly... and answer me...

Are you gonna be mine...
Are you gonna save me from the world and its cruelty,
From the cold of winter,
From the envy of the gods and the jealousy of evil...

Will you stand by me,
Will you be with me,
Will you love me...
As strongly as I think I love you?...

Are you gonna be mine?


神龍、9日11月2012年

The Shapeless (5), the fall of shin Ryuu

(I) Don't feel exclusive…

(I) Don't feel the beauty…

(I) Don't feel the talent, or even the dexterity…

what is supposed to happen when you finally face something you've always ignored?

what am i supposed to be after all these years wearing a mask?

what happens when everything falls and I'm strip naked towards every raw truth?

Never have I had so many doubts in one moment only

Just as now, always had them all left without any answers

And yet, my mind and heart never cease to wonder around the questions…

この夢の世界では、俺はかつて大切な神龍の人合った場所、今ではとんでもない形状を隠すための場所を持っていない*…

I'm so unsure of myself, I even question my existence…

My shapeless box of mysteries… left unresolved, left to die alone…

Can Love be such a mean, mindless bulldozer?

神龍、26日10月2012年



*:Romanji:
Kono yume no sekai de wa, ore wa katsute taisetsuna shinRyuu no hito atta basho, ima de wa tondemonai keijou wo kakusu tame no basho wo motteinai...

Translation:
In this dream world, where I was once the important shinRyuu, now I don't even have a place to hide my ridiculous shape…

Don't make mistakes!

I like fluffy, but not egotistical...
I like genuine, but not hypocritical...
I like mad, but not reckless...
I may let people turn me into a confession wall, but I will definitely NOT EVER be a non-reactive stone statue!


神龍、12日10月2012年

Humanタバコ(Tobacco)

The smoke whirls around the air...
It vanishes like a ghost
Like an ethereal fluid, it flows
Like a specter, mingles in reality without being seen...
What are we but some filter for the soul
An instrument playing the song our unseen master orders us to

The organic filter 神さま made for their creations to juggle and wiggle about...
Like a weed planted to invade and expand throughout the land
Carved by 神さま finest artists to infect the world with its poisonous manipulated will

Like a physical avatar of the ethereal beings
We're smoked by them
Whirling around reality
Morphing its shape through the smoke released
Burlesque arabesques floating and flowing
And vanishing in thin air
Through the flow of time...

History is nothing but the explanation of the origins of the disease of the world and its consequences...
How we dried out its resources
And smoked them like pros
Letting ourselves wandering around the ruins of Earth like hobos
Begging for the survival of the human fag
Just to enjoy a little more time in the land of the living material...


神龍、15日4月2012年

この時間

This is it...
The moment when we become grown-ups
The moment when we grow ourselves some conscious awareness
When it all makes sense
And, despite knowing we are powerless ants
We surely know that it is us who turn the world upside down
Puny ants with puny power
Turn everyone into sheeps
Leading them according to our desires
Changing the natural course according to our will

This is us
The most obnoxious virus of the entire world
Infecting every ounce of earth beneath our feet
With our knowledge
With our culture
With our differences
With our supposed love to thy neighbour

This is everything
The place where it all happens
The space where everyone has room to occupy with the ever growing/diminuishing ego
Expanding ourselves in all sorts of ways possible and unimaginable
Destroying in order to construct
Creating phoenixes within us and in others

The ever changing chameleon
Morphing every atom in existence
Shaping souls and theories
To either justify our presence
or simply to present reasons just not to be there at all...

This is it...
This is 大人
This is 人間
This is US!
俺達!


神龍、25日3月2012年

The fiery zodiac is in Reverse!

俺の運命は皮肉なですよ!
逆によ!
まずは射手座と獅子座と惚れる
そして今、牡羊座と惚れる。。。
逆に、逆に。。。自分の運命。。。


神龍、17日3月2012年




Romanji:

Ore no unmei wa hiniku na desu yo!
Gyaku ni yo!
Mazu wa Iteza to Shishiza to horeru
Soshite ima, Ohitsujiza to horeru...
Gyaku ni, gyaku ni... Jibun no unmei...


Translation:

My fate seems ironic!
It's reversing!
First I fall for the Archer and the Lion
And now, I fall for the Ram...
It is really in backwards... My own destiny...

牡羊のStrike!

人生は難しい
人々は神さまじゃない
俺はまだ生きてる
でも自分の心はまだ死んである

何も分からない
何も感じない
何も思ってない

俺の中には死んである
全ての俺の体が痛い
このキズがまだここにある
そしてとても痛い
BLUESは自分の魂がBLUE作る


神龍、14日3月2012年




Romanji:

Ohitsujiza no Strike!

Jinsei wa muzukashii
Hitobito wa Kami-sama ja nai
Ore wa mada ikiteru
Demo, jibun no kokoro wa mada shinde aru

Nani mo wakaranai
Nani mo kanjinai
Nani mo omottenai

Ore no naka ni wa shinde aru
Subete no ore no karada ga itai
Kono kizu ga mada koko ni aru
Soshite totemo itai
BLUES wa jibun no tamashii ga BLUE tsukuru


Translation:

Ram's Strike!

Life's hard
People aren't gods
I'm still living
But my heart is still dying

I know nothing
I feel nothing
I think nothing

My inside is dying
All my body hurts
This wound is still here
And it hurts like hell
Blues turn my soul blue

Quando bate a saudade

Nostalgia
Não é coisa frequente
Mas quando surge
Torna-se implacável
Um espirito que dá asas a memórias
Que doem por ficarem para trás
Sem possibilidade de repetição

Sinto o coração como instrumento de percursão
Acompanhando a melodia que me ameniza
Sem explicações nem perguntas
Sem pareceres nem sentenças
Como a voz suave do saxofone
Entranhando-se-me no cérebro
Como invasor benevolente

Falta sempre se sente
Mas o importante é que ainda que não seja igual
O Jazz sempre me apaziguará a alma
...


神龍、14日3月2012年

I'm High...

(Stumbling in the world)


僕はナンブだ
この場所はSoothing
そして音楽はSlowly走る

ワイルドハートがそのゆっくりと時間を感じる
I'm dreaming while I'm walking
And to myself, I think
俺は大変だ
...

ピースを感じる
だから戦争が始めないよ
兄弟である、このおまえ

どうか
傷がしないで
愛してるけど
俺のFaultだ

だからどうか
自分の心にはまた傷がしないで
...


神龍、11日3月2012年




Romanji:

Boku wa NANBU da
Kono basho wa Soothing
Soshite ongaku wa Slowly hashiru

UAIRUDO HAATO ga sono yukkuri to jikan wo kanjiru
I'm dreaming while I'm walking
And to myself, I think
Boku wa taihen da
...

PIISU wo kanjiru
Dakara sensou ga hajimenai yo
Kyoudai de aru, kono omae

Douka
Kizu ga shinaide
Aishiteru kedo
Ore no Fault da

Dakara douka
Jibun no kokoro ni wa mata kizu ga shinaide
...




Translation:

I'm numb
This place is soothing
And the music runs slowly

My wild heart feels that slow time
I'm dreaming while I'm walking
And to myself, I think
I am weird
...

I feel peace
So there won't be a war
Just be a brother, this you

Please
Don't wound me
I love you, but
It's my own Fault

So please
Don't wound my heart again
...

大変

(Taihen)
(Weird)

まだ不思議
僕は生きてる
心死んで(ある)


神龍、28日2月2012年




Romanji:
Mada fushigi
Boku wa ikiteru
Shin shinde (aru)


Translation:
Still bizarre
I'm alive
As my heart dies

アラキ

(ARAKI)
(Araki*)

Linha fina dum papel solto

Memória cravada pela luz

Sobre uma derme de prata

Que se revela livro de contos

Aglomerados num só instante

Numa só captação relampejante

É beco destruído

Mostrando inúmeros caminhos

É a liberdade da subjectividade

Completamente criada ao acaso

Ou meticulosamente estudada

Um derrame de sentimentos

Ou um contexto completamente oco

Sobram-lhe as cores

Ou os jogos da luz e da sombra

Vistos e revistos

Numa vistoria que procura um objectivo

Vagina mecânica dando luz à arte

E nela revê-se toda uma vida

Ou um simples pensamento

神龍、28日2月2012年

*アラキ(ARAKI) - Nobuyoshi Araki, fotógrafo controverso japonês

Araki in Wikipedia

Araki in Artnet

Frustrations...

Lone and distant

That's how i've grown

Lone and tired

Trying to assemble

All the lost pieces of me

From the moment of selfdestruction

After sharing it all...

Grown tired and lonesome

Of getting into deadends

Every single time i struggle for a neverending way

Leading to enlightment

Keeping me alive

Not cloistered in frustration

And turning undone and numb...

神龍、16日2月2012年

Out of cowardice...

Yes, that's what I am...
Yes, you're right...
Yes, I omit...
Yes, I hide...

No, I don't want to speak directly...
No, because I'm sure to regret...
No, don't want to forget...
No, I mustn't feel...

I am a coward...
Hiding between the sheets of paper where I overtly express my feelings for you...
Playing reality in a mind theatre where my mask overlays the suppressed expressions and words, dying to fly out of my body language and mouth...

Yes, I do love you
And No! I don't want to say it...
Rather choose death than deal with rejection in the face...
Rather choose frustration and isolation instead of turning into a different and far path away from what I hold dear...

It kills slowly,
But would die faster if I turn the key to my vault...
But hey... That's just the fucked up me!


神龍、27日2月2012年

ラブ レター

(Rabu Retaa)
(Love Letter)


Mad skills to impress no one

Expecting the impossible

While not asking a thing

I think of you as dream

A nice one that makes me warm inside

The kind that makes you not wanna wake up

That makes you lame inside out

And yet, while being brave and adventurous in it,
You just feel frustrated and down

Because you just acknowledge how powerless you are in reality

And you know your words will never reach their destination because you'll refuse to even open your mouth...

The bigger frustration lies on the known refusal of any feelings I may show or share...
So without expecting anything from you
Not even words
I must ask you this

Let me just have you as a nice dream
'Cuz I have plenty of time to wake up to reality

with love,
your admirer - shinRyuu

神龍、14日2月2012年


Note:
this wasn't written like a letter is supposed to... but nevertheless, I think the result was just the same

Affection Painter

You're like a master piece...
A damned work of art...
A tempting muse...
Inspiring my art flow, but piercing my heart with passion...
And yet, like a museum item...
Untouchable...
Gazing and loving you from afar...
Cursing the day I saw you for the first time...
Despairing for the day I can finally forget you and put my heart to rest...


神龍、29日1月2012年

Desdém a Eros II

Hoje sonhei com impossíveis...
Com pessoas impossíveis a dizerem e a fazerem coisas impossíveis...
Com eventos impossíveis...
Como pode um pensamento parecer-me tão real como o toque e o sentir... um sabor que não existe, mas que consegui saborear sobre os meus lábios e língua... uma paixão platónica que senti ser tão recíproca... um abraço de ilusão que senti apertado e intencional...
Um misto de sentidos, toques e sabores que não deixei de sentir apesar de irreais...
Dos quais, na autêntica realidade desperta, sinto agora afeição e saudade dilacerantes...
Odeio amar... odeio afeições... odeio tudo isso por me expôr descaradamente e saber mais tarde que não passou tudo de um sacrifício inútil a quem nunca me amou...
Ao ponto dos meus próprios sonhos me atraiçoarem com simples e baratos logros de criança...


神龍、26日1月2012年

The impression you give...

It's not like I don't care...
It's just... not that important...
Nevertheless I love you...


神龍、14日1月2012年

Desdém a Eros...

Quero ver-te, tocar-te, sentir-te...
Saber que te posso chamar de meu e que fazes parte de mim...
Que me complementas mais do que qualquer coisa ou pessoa...
Que me és essencial, crucial...
Saber que não te tenho, nem te posso ter... lembra-me Daphne e seu amante perseguidor...
E isso faz-me odiar o amor...


神龍、14日1月2012年