不思議なEFFECT

I got a thing in my blood
I think its called psychosis
It makes my body weird
My mind weird and so on
My heart beats up too many times
My fingers start to wiggle like they were alive
My stomach looks like it has swarm of butterflies
And the weirdest thing is... that all happens mostly when you're around

Then again, maybe it's just cholesterol...


神龍、27日11月2010年




Note:

不思議なEFFECT

Fushigi na EFFECT

Bizarre Effects

神達/一の二つ道

Gotta love'em, gotta hate'em...
Well... why do we even need them?
With or without real deities and believes, we need to look at us in two different ways...
The human and the other...
Gotta look out for yourself, look out for what's best for you, what's best in you, what's best out on you...
No ego or narcissism exceeding... just you as a civilian, a person, a human, a being...
And you can't forget the other, the other human beings around you and/or humankind itself...
Be a helping hand, be a worker, be a friend, be a lover, you gotta love in order to be loved in return...
Don't expect from others what you yourself do not give away...
Independently from the number of gods and doctrines, either be one, fifty or none, you are not getting any luck or love from either of them...
Consequences are not coincidences, but raw reactions from every action of ours...
Moral issues wouldn't exist if one should take ones own moral to use on oneself instead of using blame or guilt on others, remember... good or bad, actions come around as soon or late reactions...
Foreseen fate doesn't exist, but an ambiguous path that we walk on...
Our choices and actions makes us and everything around us...
Take good care of you and the other...
This will reflect itself on everything...
Mater Gaea will notice you...
Be aware...


神龍、27日11月2010年




Note:

神達/一の二つ道

Kamitachi/Ichi no Futatsu michi

Deuses(as) /Dois caminhos de um

Time out!

Vejo-me no espelho...
Soletro o meu suspiro enquanto ouço a minha respiração...
São vogais que descrevem o humor submisso ao espirito...
São expressões inequívocas de (des)contentamento...
Disperso-me nos meus fugidios pensamentos e...
...
Deles desperto como que com um abanão físico
Para perceber que havia perdido certos minutos da minha vida,
Alimentando o meu tédio quotidiano...
E, como que sem alma, fujo do meu próprio reflexo
Só p'ra dar de caras com todo o resto do mundo...
De novo...


神龍、17日11月2010年

Chiron

Entidade majestosa
De palavras sábias que ecoam por meus ouvidos
São mitos e histórias que não me cansam
São intelegíveis absurdos que nunca antes me fizeram tanto sentido

Ser galante e nunca preso
E ainda assim
Vive de amarras à sua prisão sem fim

Louvo tua paixão pela vida
Tua e dos teus demais
Que demais vivem senão da tua sede
De águas que sozinhos nunca beberiam

São medos e são sombras que perseguem
A mim e a qualquer humano
São materiais de origem etérea que ganharam forma
Graças às nossas (des)crenças no incógnito

São ventos e vendavais
De coragem e mestria que levantas sobre os pupilos
Que mais serei eu senão um desses
Que só desiludem teu orgulho antes da sua própria victória

Das tuas clarividentes palmas
Ditas, por linguagens que não me ocorreria mencionar,
Destinos e fortunas

E as linhas do futuro se desdobram e se multiplicam
Sobre a visão humana
Sob a forma de consequência

E não é mais a consequência
Senão o resultado da soma das acções tomadas
Quer presentes, quer passadas
E não se tome isso como coincidência
Pois ainda que pareça
No mundo não existe tal facto!


神龍、21日10月2010年

Renascer...

De calma moção...
Vou, em lentas passadas, retornando a velhos hábitos que me retratam deixando rasto das rasgadas iras que hoje desprezo ou simplesmente remeto ao esquecimento... São excessivamente vãs para as reavivar, demasiado inúteis para pertencerem ao presente... com consequências demasiado vis para pertencerem ao futuro...
Numa mescla de transfigurações psicológicas dolorosas, num posto de espectador-participante, vi chegar um período de paz interior...
Contudo esta encontra-se cercada de um escudo de reacções dignas de sensibilidade à flor da pele... um bem demasiado precioso confundido com o que poderá ser felicidade ou simples alegria que cria um temor pela sua possível perda e assim uma defensiva extremamente ofensiva...
É silêncio... que me permite perder num anacoretismo intermitente e vivenciar em pleno os ruídos do quotidiano...
É o silêncio que me fecha as pálpebras e faz repousar o corpo dilacerado por suas próprias armas...
É apenas silêncio que não pretendo deixar quebrar...
É a virtude do asceta que sempre aqui viveu e que, apesar de minimizar certas qualidades durante as suas transformações e sofrimentos, acaba por sobressair-se sempre ao enfatizar outras...
Mas mesmo com tanto alvoroço, estes meus passos lentos vão se dando... em lenta locomoção... e com isso, forma-se um rumo para uma recuperação, ainda que pachorrenta, de bens perdidos no caminho... e quem sabe talvez novas descobertas...


神龍、10日10月2010年

生きて人間/Raivinhas

My heart hurts so bad...
My blood is boiling so feverishly and furiously from anger...
I try not to explode...
I try not to implode...
I try to survive by making others around me live without knowing how demonically angered I am...
And yet I make so much effort to sustain this inside without killing me... psychologically...
Maybe my best asset wasn't sacrificed for the sake of a friendship...
Maybe my patience was and still is my inner shield to fight my angered self compressed inside me... and consequently it is actually so badly destroyed that it leaves no solid visual residues...
Maybe that's what disguises me as a wise or a comprehensive person...
Since my life is full of masks...
It's being so harsh, so hard to uncover and trying to understand the self behind all these illusions I didn't even know they existed in me...
Harder still is dealing with such discoveries hidden from the sight of those that surround me...
Thankfully, my will to live is so much stronger than all of this...
地獄の王様、僕を誘惑しないで
僕は得られない
だからアキラメテよ！
僕は王様のじゃない

神龍、2日10月2010年




Note:


Romanji:

Ikite Ningen/(lit.)小さい激怒(chiisai gekido)

(...)
Jigoku no Ou-sama, Boku o yuuwaku shinaide
Boku wa erarenai
Dakara AKIRAMETE yo!
Boku wa Ou-sama no ja nai


Translation:

Living Human being/(lit.)Little furies

(...)
Lord of Hell, don't tempt me
I won't give in
So GIVE UP!
I am not yours

No more mistakes...

I won't say I love you, until I know you...
I won't say I love you just because I like you... a lot...
I will never say I love you again unless I really do...
Shinjitte!!


神龍、30日9月2010年




Note:

shinjitte = believe (in it)

I love bunnies, in my plate...

I see a little bunny in the fields
Rather suck something that kills
I see no sorrow on your mind
Rather have death on my behind

I piss, I hit, I squeeze, I moan
So much stupidity on my own
Little bunny with fluffy hair
Wanna slice you, it's only fair

I'm mister butcher,
It's not a lie
Look out mister bunny
'Cuz your gonna die!

P.S.: Don't worry... Tortoise won't get you 'cuz she was already in my soup!


神龍(psycopath side)、28日9月2010年

Cynical laugh of lucky Fortune...

Sitting on my bed I watch the calm sight displayed on my window...
I'm left daydreaming... dreaming awaken... living the dream away from reality...
Being the wanderer, in search of a reason to be living in this frenetic world of mad men...
Realizing that I am nothing but an ascetic of my own fantasizing reality... that I've been fooled by my own delusional truth and worse than that... I forgot to live as a human...
A thing and one thing only in my life has made me live a normal human life...
There are those that are born with mad skills, those who gain them through effort, and then there are those who are just lucky...
Fortune has, in a general view, always smiling on me...
There was no time at all where I wasn't lucky, even if just a little...
Slipping away from situations I got myself into that could compromise most of my life and personality...
Learning from some mistakes, and forgetting or neglecting other things due to the opening of easy paths by dear shear luck...
For good and for bad, I've been lucky...
Then again, Fortune, despite all her smiles, has done something behind my sight...
All paths were open, except for one...
The one I was neglecting for life...
The one I forgot a long time ago and wouldn't expect to miss again...
The one that was stronger than my despise by showing itself now in front of me and forbid me its entrance...
Yes, I was always lucky...
Lucky enough to not find love... not even when I desperately need it to live...
And now Love itself won't let me feel it... at least not the way it's supposed to...

...not so lucky, right lady Luck?


神龍、26日9月2010年

私の仮面

Getting closer to what I feared the most
I'm on the brink of destruction
In an uncontrolled acceleration process
and yet... time seems to pass by so slowly...

There were times
When love or luck or even a lucky love
Out of sight, out of nowhere,
It would strike down all my worries and issues
and now... I'm begging for it to come around again...

Never knew I could feel like this
Stone stupid for something I never cared before
I want to hide in that tight hug I've been longing so much
But there's no one here or near to fulfill my wish
Broken and desperate... and yet its all hidden away...
Not even that cursed optimism or mine has some advice
So helpful and yet so useless...

案山子はなりたい...
本当になりたい...
ヘノヘノモヘジの顔だよ...
俺の心の中にこの隠れたSORROWが痛い...
然し、この仮面は必ず僕の顔である...
いつまでも...


神龍、17日9月2010年



Note:


私の仮面 = watashi no kamen = My mask


(Excerpt in japanese)
Romanji:

Kakashi wa naritai...
Hontou ni naritai...
Henohenomoheji no kao da yo...
Ore no kokoro no naka ni kono kakureta SORROW ga itai...
Shikashi, kono kamen wa kanarazu boku no kao de aru...
Itsumademo...

English:

I wanna be a scarecrow...
So very much...
A Henohenomoheji face of a scarecrow...
The hidden sorrow inside my heart hurts...
But then again, I'm sure this mask will be on my face...
Forever...